Turning Life Around..Turning Loose

   Message From: echristian@webtv.net (Elizabeth Christian) Date: Mon, Jul 31, 2000, 8:23am To: echristian@webtv.net Subject: Plans.... When Phoebe was born deaf January 24, 1956 your life changed forever. You had a responsibility that you have been running and running away from for the past 44 years. Monday mornings to work were always "escape".

Your conscience tells you that you should spend the rest of your life helping her to have a better life, doing the things you did not do. State education for the deaf which allowed parents to shuffle their children off to boarding school at a very young age was a real "cop out".

In order to help Phoebe and other deaf people you need to learn sign language for one thing. You need to set a good example for Phoebe, you need to become "selfless" if that is possible...to work on your spiritual life....

All of this crazy Ebay stuff that you are doing now....when you still have unresolved issues regarding your 1998 taxes is bad. Work ???? What people think about you when you "retire"...that you must live up to what the Chanins and Rankins of this world have done on leaving Mercer..on to bigger and better jobs ?

Why ?

The beautiful things of this world...Marti's lovely little face, Jay's strong body...the flowers, clouds above you right now....Music for the taking on the radio....

OK...now that you have them, go ahead an enjoy all the dolls....but put them in perspective.

And ...writing ? You should have realized back in 1978 when you were struggling with the AACP history..and not getting anywhere...that you were not capable of writing this..you should have cut your losses far earlier..and the same with the GA State history thing......

Can you in fact focus on becoming a "good person"..well, not just becoming....BEING.... You have a plan..a daily plan

Up - 5:15

Breatfast of fruit, a piece of bread, powdered milk...

PCAC ...6:00...workout with a balance of weights and machines..and stretching....

7:30 .....train, bus to Mercer

9:00 - 5:30 - with an hour for lunch...take a piece of fruit....again, powdered milk....

5:30 - 7:00...walk up to a bus stop...get the schedule....

7:00 - 8:00 - quick swim at PCAC....and a steam...and while you are doing this....concentrate on prayer...work on prayer..communion with God....see if you can do it...

8:00 - 9:15....Your time for email....and consistant writing....Stay away from the computer except for this time...the Compter has become an addiction in a really bad way...

Send letters and photos to Phoebe Al Ms Landow....

Maybe you should settle on just a few of the penpals and let the rest go....It is a compulsion See how you can fight "compulsions"... Also eat supper....see about 3 vegs...again, powdered milk...

9:15 - lie down and plan for a really good 8 hours sleep...

And you plan for the next year....a year in Rome with Phoebe...getting involved with Rome....getting involved with Phoebe...

Helping Eden at home with her housework...that is what she really needs, so she can be free of the clutter....

A letter to you, to you Elizabeth Your own best penpal...and who really cares about your stuff but you. The web is already full of more stuff than anyone can read....You don't need to add to it....


Frank letter to Eden

We are both miserable because of our eating habits..not our weight, that is an effect, but our eating habits.

Conclusion...

We both need to 1. get a coach...the right personal trainer, and stick with that person...and keep looking until we find her..and it will be a HER...the money is worth it

2. get the clutter out of our lives. It is hard to admit the children are now growing and all of those toys we played with..or at least I played with ..are ready to go on to someone else....

Jay and Marti need to learn now to keep their possessions to a minimum..those things they really need....so that their own sense of their environment is very clear....

Be ruthless...decide what to keep from their first 6 years....and let the rest go...now..so you can move ahead....The clutter is drowning you....

Also...the best way to handle food right now is probably to get all sweets from upstairs....and alchol...become vegetarians for a year and stay away from eating out....

It sounds hard...but this owuld do it.

You also need to plan to to to the Y EVERY day.....and do something...even if you just end up getting into the whirlpool....You will feel so much better.

Your mother..who is trying hard to practice what she preaches....

E


More to myself

   Message From: echristian@webtv.net (Elizabeth Christian) Date: Mon, Jul 31, 2000, 9:18am To: echristian@webtv.net Subject: A dialogue with yourself

The steps you need to take to move ahead

1. 1998 taxes....do them and send letter to IRS

2. Without fail go to PCAC tomorrow morning.

3. Get rid of all these boxes tonight

4. Do not touch webtv except for a limited 30 minutes this evening....DO NOT, DO NOT...DO NOT

5. Remember...if you discontinue your present penpals, then there will always be more....you need to clean out that part of your life.. I suspect

6. Christmas card list..the way to stay in touch with people from your past ? ......

Concentrate on what is important NOW, NOW, NOW....NOW....

How can you get rid of the Ebay stuff ????? Leave packages in train stations with messages in them....????

Crazy....

Now, really feeling crazy..as you are aboutto get some pounds to send to K..to get those Dirk Bogarde books..which are meaningless to you...meaningless.... To you Elizabeth, for your eyes only..for you... And these conversations with people that are so unsatisfactory..as hanging on in a conversation with Barabara who works here today...felt she wanted to get on...insisted on talking about Michican..but then she did tell me about her mother sending them to N Michigan in the summer so pick cherries..an interesting picture....this lady from Detroit...married, works here, cleaning...

Fear..fear of money, so very strong....strong....

To you Elizabeth, to you..you..you....you... I kiss my hand...a kiss for the day..why not ? E